im hiding again 
tryna fight a battle that my mind cannot win 
im trapped, alone and scared of what i see 
its a image, but its not me 
i’ve constantly tried to understand who i am 
but no mirror, no words, no one can define me 

i’ve conformed to the worlds of a small simple minded society 
gave up my freedom to be their version of what me is supposed to be 
how can i live, and be happy, when im not sure who i am 
how can i survive when i dont know how to live 
how can i grow, when i dont have the tools to learn 
how can i make them understand, what my own mind cant 

my mind is my haven, its filled with realness 
only in my head am i allowed to be free 
i’ve spent sleepless nights trying to figure out, who exactly is me 
demented, is my thoughts 
deranged is my mindframe 
an enigma of what my heart says 
a exponent at the gift of creativity 
but yet i still havent learn to be me 

my walls are cavin ive tried to say goodbye 
endgame, but i was too scared 
had an angel, my strength, calling me back 
holding me when i couldnt go on lettin me know that it wasnt wrong 

yet, I couldnt face what i had become 
my image was a reflection of someone 
it wasnt me, cuz i didnt know me 
it was the person, who i thought i could be 
kontained, wraped in chains, 
forced out, by a willpower stronger than my own 
who i am not can no longer live on 

to survive i have to break free, dissassocaite the chains that bind me 
with eyes 
filled with pain and sorrow 
i rise like a phoenix 
full of promise for tommorrow 
kontained i am not, exiled i am 
a fighter with a strong will 
leaving but never actually leaving 
finding a balace between wanting and needing 
I fly