My personality reflects my emotions that at times cannot be contained 
i often say things with so much venom that they often seem obscene 
i hide behind this image of how u envision i should be viewed 
yet that vision, in a mirror is so construed 
many arguments have no roots, coming from places not yet found 
simply having no point, but us just going round for round 
inside i still care, but somehow it never seems right 
i make excuses just to take flight 

the feeling of your absence frightens my existence and leads me to question my actions: 
Is she worth losing you over? 
Is it all circumstance that our trust levels are no longer in tack? 
because i overstepped my boundaries 
my pride lets me slide, 
what you don’t know will never hurt you 
little to to no willpower, allows me to be stubborn 
at times i convince myself that everything i do is right 
but knowing everything done in the dark comes to light 
still somehow someway i allow myself to be sucked into another’s arms 
my actions i say are unintentional, 
my selfishness wont allow me to be a woman 
just to admit the truth 
i know there are times you wonder 
if what i say is real 
because i often speak with contradiction 
and at those times i even see my own reflection with affliction 
Meaning……. 

This is not the woman that I am, nor the woman i want to be 
Even when i’m engrossed in the deception of my words and lies 
for all the hurt, the drama, the suspicions and tears that i have caused, 
and all that may come 

help me become the woman that you know i can be 
I pray that you have the strength to look past it and see that 
My…….. my world is built around you